When we first moved to Churchill Heights,
Moses was just another little black kid who happened to live next door. I was
fourteen years old and he was in another universe. Being four years younger
than me was a chasm in my world.
We both had something in common -
our fathers were long gone. His father had been hounded out of town by guilt
and mine was everyman I ever passed in the street, or it could have been.
Okay, I didn’t have a dad but I had a
mother who loved me in her own way and who was a just as great at being a
father . Perhaps this is what this story is all about: love. How people can love each other in the
weirdest of ways. It has nothing to do with sex, it just
that love can mean a million things and still be the best of everything.
My mother spent most nights out in the
streets looking for love and if it came with money left next to her bed then so much
the better. It meant we could eat.
Moses’ father had been a preacher in a baptist church in Wind Cotton Row, but one summer he had seen the light in a
deaconess by the name of Tallulah and they disappeared for good into the wilderness.
His mother was scared that the struggle
against Satan was only as good as that particular soul’s DNA and so if
Moses was anything like his father then the devil would find him a walkover.
So every night when Moses returned from his schooling and after being watered and
fed (and having said his prayers), he would be put into his bedroom and the door locked
against the forces of darkness. I’m not criticising his mother, this was how
she showed her love by protecting her boy - by squeezing the very life force
out of him.
I know all this because his bedroom was
through the wall from mine and every night,as I went to sleep, I could hear the
poor kid weeping and calling for his father. After a while I got so used to it, that
I’m ashamed to say, I didn’t hear him anymore.
That was until one night while my mother
had taken to the streets; I heard a scream from next door that made me think
Moses was dying. It didn’t stop, in fact, if anything, it got worse making me get
out of my bed and go to see what was wrong.
I knocked on their door but there was no
reply. I looked through the main window and there were no lights showing, so I
decided I had to do something and I charged the door with my shoulder.
It didn’t move an inch. It was then I spotted a small side window open and without too much bother I managed to let myself in (I don’t want to give too many details away in case someone reads it and copies me).
It didn’t move an inch. It was then I spotted a small side window open and without too much bother I managed to let myself in (I don’t want to give too many details away in case someone reads it and copies me).
Although I must have tripped over everything
in my path, I found his bedroom - it was in the same place as mine but the other
way around. Luckily there was a key in the door but so as not to
frighten Moses further, I shouted.
“It’s me, Josh from next door.”
I
don’t think he heard me, or at least he didn’t care as he just kept on
screaming.
When I opened that door I stumbled
into the strangest bedroom - ever. There were pictures of angels and Jesus covering
all the walls, it was enough to give me the shivers and there, in the middle of
the floor, was a ten year old boy who was screaming his head off. I guess he’d
just had enough. It happens to us all.
I’ve never been much good at hugging
people but I felt that this was what was needed. I held the poor kid and
tried to get him to calm down; after a half an hour or so, he began to cool it
and I so I got him a fizzy drink from my place.
Eventually Moses only let out the
occasional sob and it was then I saw he was clutching at a postcard of some
beach.
“It’s Hastings”, he said, apparently it’s
where his father was from and get this - Moses had never seen the sea. His
father had promised to take him one day. So this is
the point where I promised the kid that I would take him to the beach the very
next day, when both our mothers were out doing other things.
The following morning, after I heard Moses
mother leave, I took some money from my mother’s bedside table (the money she
got from her boyfriends to get her through the recession) and went next door.
Once again, I had to break in – what is
wrong with this woman? Satan isn’t going
to come knocking on her door, although I can see what you’re thinking – I could
be the bogey man, but I’m not.
Moses was sitting on the edge of his bed
and he was all ready to go. Apparently he didn’t sleep at all because he
was so excited. To tell you the truth I hadn’t noticed that there was no sobbing
through the wall.
When we were on the train, he told me this
was his first trip on one and I was totally blown away by this little guy’s
excitement. When we finally reached Hastings, he ran all the way from the
station to the beach and shouted and laughed and cried (all at the same time).
He had me look for the exact spot that was shown on that
postcard of his father’s and whether by luck or providence, we found the very spot and that was when
the poor kid started to weep. To celebrate and cheer him up, I took Moses to an
ice cream parlour – sure, he had had ice cream before but never walking along a
sea front. I stole a look at him and he was a million miles away from that
little boy in the bedroom.
And then he did something that I’m sure
was rarer than gold, he smiled - not just a grin but a full- on smile from ear
to ear. It was then I knew I had done the right thing.
Once we’d finished the ice cream, I asked
Moses if he was still hungry and do you know what he said?
“Yeh”
So we bought some fish and chips and as we
ate them as we weaved our way through the fishing boats that sat on the beach.
That’s the unusual thing about the trawlers down here - they launch them from
the beach.
As we reached the old car park, the
seagulls started to dive bomb us, I guess they pass this little piece of wisdom
from seagull to seagull, that if you annoy the tourists enough they’ll drop
their fish and chips and leave a banquet for the birds.
It was then I saw her - Moses’ mother and a
posse of folks I took were from the baptist church, the God Squad were on our
tail. She must have known he’d pick this place to disappear to, and she
probably thought that if the devil ever took a trip anywhere, it would be to Hastings
to corrupt ten year old boys.
I was sure she hadn’t seen us but just in case I made
Moses run, telling him that the gulls were coming in for an attack. He seemed
to believe my story and so we ran into the nearest toilet which stood at the end
of the car park.
I told Moses to be quiet while I listened
for marauding church people but it seemed all clear. Moses then decided he
needed a pee but that he wasn’t prepared
to use the urinal, he wanted to use the cubicle and could I stand by the
cubicle door just in case.
If it made him pee a little easier then
there was no problem with me.
While he was in the cubicle, he kept asking
was I still there, I’d tell him yes and he’d go back to whistling. Then he
passed a newspaper cutting under the cubicle door.
“What’s this?” I asked him.
“Read it.”
So I did. It was all about this guy who stood
in the high street of a town preaching the gospels for as long as there was
daylight. He’d made the more sensational papers and they’d dubbed him The Jesus
of Bromley – an area in south London.
“That’s him, that’s my father” he
whispered under the door.
I read on and it seems to get back in God’s good
books, after running from his family, he’d taken it upon himself to steer the people
of Bromley back to a more religious path. The ‘newspapers made out he was
crazy. To be honest, I liked the look of the guy, he seemed to be just an older
version of Moses. Same smile, same kindness.
“I miss my Dad” he whispered.
When Moses had finished up and his hands were
washed, I decided we should make a run for it. Where to, I hadn’t decided yet
but we couldn’t stay in the toilet.
As we ran out of the building, it was like
that final scene from Butch Cassidy and The Sundance Kid. They were all there
waiting on us - the police, the social workers and the baptist posse led by an
angry version of Moses’ mother.
What can I tell you about the outcome? Moses was returned
home and I was told to appear in front of a panel of old people who would sit
and judge me.
And they did.
Because I hadn’t forced Moses to come to
the seaside, I was put on probation, or
more accurately, I was bound over to my grandmother on the condition that if I
absconded from her, I would be sent to a young offenders’ institution until my
18th birthday – no questions and no appeals.
So I moved in with my grandmother and it
wasn’t the worst thing in the world. I know my mother loves me but my grandmother
was at least home most of the time.
One night, I sat outside my grandmother’s
house in the garden. I’d never lived in a house with one of those before and I
loved it. Looking after the garden was my grandmother’s hobby, although looking
after me seemed to be up there with it.
I loved living with her, although I did
still miss my mother and even Moses in a funny sort of way. Then one night, my grandmother was on the ‘phone
talking to one of her friends and they were discussing a boy.
“And he hasn’t been seen?
No....no....what, just completely disappeared?”Asked my astonished grandmother.
It seems that Moses hadn’t been seen, even
at school and I knew right away what the problem was.
I guess Moses’ mother thought that I was
the devil or the nearest thing to it and to keep him safe, she’d locked him permanently
in that room of his. Poor Moses would be going insane.
I had to do something and I knew it was
going to hurt me very badly but I couldn’t leave my friend, my brother Moses
stuck in that room, it would finish him off. I wasn’t angry at his mother - it
was a sort of love, that all she wanted to do was keep him protected.
If I went to get him and they caught me, I
would go to prison but the other side of the argument was that Moses was
already in one.
So the next morning while my grandmother
was having a bath, I took her rent money from the box underneath her
television. I knew this was wrong but sometimes you’ve got to do a thing even
if you don’t like it.
I waited outside Moses’ house until his
mother went out and then I went in and got him. It wasn’t so easy this time,
nothing was lying open, so I had to smash a window.
When I eventually broke into his bedroom,
he was lying on the floor in the foetal position. When he saw me, he got up and
threw his arms around me. Someone needed me and it felt good.
We managed to catch the Bromley bus but I
didn’t tell Moses where we were going.
We stood at the bottom of Bromley High Street
and there, at the top, was his father preaching to a crowd of maybe six or seven
people. The moment Moses saw his father, he flew up that hill and threw his arms
around him.
I smiled, as I walked back down towards the bus
station.
I knew I was leaving and not coming back,
but for the first time I had done something good and it filled me with hope.
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